Words and such....

I FEEL THE WAY YOU PLAY THE GAME

I feel it coming around my friend
The good times reaching another end
It’s cold heat and snake's skin
Around my heart like infinite sin
Here you are with your love-eating grin
I lose the hope when the games begin
I cannot see it now or then
Forgetting how good it should’ve been

I feel it before I hear the door
Then in  the way you say my name, I can tell you’re back for more
I feel the way you play the game

It’s clear to see who’s keeping score
And who is feeding the flames
The catalyst we can’t ignore
We master placing blame

To the wall down on the floor
Rage is born and eats the pain
Changing who we were before
I feel the way you play the game

It resonates in your vibration
The bubble bursts our loves’ deflation
Mean season time for alienation
Graying my skies of inspiration

Stealing my smile without justification
Bombarding my world with condemnation
Injecting me with a blind frustration
Losing my will
To your game’s creation



© Melinda Marinko

I am out here – Original*

I am out here,

And the River, it's raging.

It roars in my ears

Until my vision starts fading.

I think of my journey

Ahead and behind... the smell of it, burning,

Impressed in my mind.

I am out here

Just the spirits and me

Shedding the fears and yearn to be free.

You are a phase in my past & now present,

My nights without days,

And thoughts now unpleasant.

Now finding myself here... is as if that me - that's so strong,

Had just disappeared

Slipped away and now gone.

Dec 6 1996

THEN YOU WERE GONE

I had a dream with you last night
And you told me your secrets so real.
Then we journeyed to the other side
Riding on a brand new wheel.

Whispers caressed my ears
As your embrace engulfed my soul.
Moments lasted like years
As the sun fell into snow.

The sound of your own melody
Filled the meadow where we lay.
With the feel of familiar memories
We ran naked across the blade.

Oceans of laughter crashed on our shore
As we played carelessly in the sand.
Silken sheets of rain did pour
We found shelter and you took my hand.

You said,
'I know right now we cannot be
Still we dream and find a way
Until I'm finally free...
I'll meet you in these dreams to play'
You touched me and I was shaking
With a feeling oh, so strong.
And I felt you still
As I was waking....
Reaching out
Then you were gone.
Reaching out then you were gone.

Lyrics & Melody by Melinda Lantz-Theissen Marinko
(c) 1991

 
NUMINOUS OUT THERE

When I was out there
Out where my spirits did roam
I was light as the air
I was closer to home

Out on the page
Where I've spilled out the most
You'll see all the rage
That was born to a ghost

Simplistic, sublime,
Cognizant the ether
In absence of time
I tried hard to reach her

Numinous I'm transcending
With the sun, the moon¦ you
Shallow water blending
Clarity into blue

Melinda Marinko
© 9 April 2009
By melminda


REFLECT-ABILITY

Quietly reflect upon the waves
That are crashing on your sand.
Bringing with them an ever-changing power
That is beyond your own hand.
Absorb the mist; the taste; the smell;
The sounds of all you see.
Letting each approach
With a grasp of what's to come....
Then quickly...
Set it free.
5-13-98 

TO HAVE

To have climbed the steepest mountain
And conquered every stone
To finally learn to open
All the doors on your own.

To have reached every peak
And slid down all the rainbows
To find all that you seek
Passing the open windows.

To have filled your holes of emptiness
And finally begin living
To create your own happiness
And learn how to be giving.

To have done all these things
And reaped all the rewards
Is like spreading your wings
Releasing all you’ve stored.
By melminda
JOURNEY WITH ME

Journey with me into darkness
Maybe I could shed some light
Grab my horses harness
As we take, off into flight

Over the fields of pain
Under a sky of circumstance
With every drop of rain
We’ll take another chance

Journey with me to the rainbow
Leave behind the storm
Once you let the pain go
Then soon your soul is born

By melminda


PAINTING THE RAINBOW


Living is green - the color of growing.
You’re part of the scene - you're naturally showing.

Anger is red - the color of blood.
Gone out of your head? Now rise above.

Being is clear - no color at all.
And things that you fear - will color your fall.

Craving is purple - the color that's rare.
You jump over hurtles to find yourself there.

Decision is gray - the color between.
You bend and you sway. On one thing you lean.

Loving is gold - worthy of wealth.
Don’t let it be sold or laid on a shelf.

Your sins are all black - the colors combined.
You can’t take them back there is no rewind.

Life is a rainbow you paint every day.
The 'you' that you show the life you display.

Melinda Marinko © 2002


 


OUT HERE – Original*

I am out here,
And the River, it's raging.
It roars in my ears
Until my vision starts fading.

I think of my journey
Ahead and behind... the smell of it, burning,
Impressed in my mind.

I am out here
Just the spirits and me
Shedding the fears and yearn to be free.
You are a phase in my past & now present,
My nights without days,
And thoughts now unpleasant.

Now finding myself here... is as if that me - that's so strong,
Had just disappeared
Slipped away and now gone.

Dec 6 1996

*This is the original word for word first part of the 'Out Here' series


 

I AM OUT HERE (THE SERIES)



Part I

I am out here
Where the river is raging
So loud in my ears
Until my vision is fading

And you have been my nights
Without days
…and a spirit once free
That I thought I’d not fade
Where I thought I might be

So I think of my journeys
Ahead and behind
Was it you or just yearning?
I’m looking to find?

Dec. 1996

Part II

I am out here where the river once raged
Where I feel all your fears
And think of your cage
Could we free from the cries that are born of a ghost
Then take a long ride, maybe go to the coast?

The moon is out there, as we shadow its day
Where the comet appeared without much to say
If I save all my tears, will you save yours for me?
Or will this all disappear when you’re finally free?

1997


Part III

I am out here where the river once raged
Where the roof disappears
And still I am caged
I am out here and you’re so far away
We’ve blended to gray
And nothing to say
I am out here where the spirits are free
Where you’re leaving me be.

I am out there with no room left to move
So much to prove and a skip in my groove
I am out here where visions come clear
I know not to fear
Though I’ve slept through a year

Jan 1998

Part IV

I am out here
Out here once again
I can’t disappear
I know where I’ve been

I am out there
Where I sank in a mess
With nothing to spare
And much to confess

Now I’m leaving the river
The tears and the gray
With a quake and a shiver
I know I can’t stay.

Aug 2000


Part V

I am out there
Out there on my knees
Engaging in prayer
Creating the breeze

I think of your promises
How love is a lie
I wonder if angels
Can hear someone’s eyes?

I see thoughts, feeling every worthless word
I criticize this art
As clearly absurd

I am out here
Out here on a rage
Demonstrating fear
Center stage

Feb 2001

Part VI

I am in here
Outside of myself
I cover my ears to listen to hell

I am down there
Alone on the roof
Far from aloof
A burden with proof

March 2003


Part VII

I am out here
Out here what a mess
Did I tell you my fears?
Did I make them seem less?

You are not here not there
Because you don’t exist
Is the damn truth now clear?
Could this just be some new twist?

April 2004

Part VIII

I am out here
Out here where it’s real
There’s a feeling unclear
Yet so good to feel
Slipped from my grasp
The spirits had faded
From behind the mask
Where once I'd been jaded

October 2004

I AM OUT HERE (UNDATED)

I am out here with the spirits ...and free
And here I can see what I've forgotten in me.

I had a vision and blinded myself,
Indecision and survival in hell,
With such precision, I made me unwell

No religion just casting spells.




I AM IN HERE

I am in here
And welcome you too
Discard any fears
Climb into my view
I am out there
Becoming part
Of your soul
It is a part that is bare…
And beautifully whole.
I am above
The ground below your eyes
We hear no sounds
We realize

1998

I Am Out Here.....

I am out here, out here once again,
Yet so much has changed
And it's all from within.

I have been there, where the light has no home
Where I felt swallowed up, lost and alone.

I am out here and you're so far away
My colors are gray and I fall and I pray.

You are out there and your spirit is strong.
Out there, where it seems
You’re there all alone.

The angels are where
You need them to be,
To catch all your tears and bring them to me.




THE SEA OF SERENITY

Gone beyond to peaceful paths
A place so bright and inviting
The soul of a man and the loves he had
Those worlds are now dividing
On to a place where the angels roam
To the sea of serenity
Full of grace it feels like home
And the only place to be

By melminda
Winner! Starlight1's Mixed Bag Challenge – Sea of Serenity
I REMEMBER

I listen to the moments gone; I taste the view and smell the songs.
Swept away, in so deep, I remember what you let me keep.

The angels, the spirits, and the ghost could see, the light that came from you with me
When it happened, when you left, I remember darkness crushed my chest.

You come and go now like a glimpse, no longer rapt within suspense
We gave, we took, we cried, we shoved, but I remember we mostly Loved.

I remember your soul my friend.

BREAK IT OUT… FIX IT IN
Break it out… fix it in
Be the crowd or be the Djin
Don’t be too loud … but wear it thin,
While you live - within again.

Racing mind slows the soul
Crash your time… Pass the bowl
Don’t be too kind …. You’ll make a hole
Now don’t you give…give any mo’.

Melinda Marinko
11/2014 
Who Were They?

I wonder what it was that started
As their faces filled with fear?
And why it was that they were parted
From those they held so dear?

I wonder why it happened this way
The lives twisted around?
And who it was that would have to pay
The people on the ground?

I wonder how they all turned out
Those souls lost in the crowds?
Or what it was that had filled them with doubt
The faces in the shrouds?

I wonder where they could be right now
They’ve hidden from the rain?
Or when it was, they made a vow
To never live in vain?

I wonder who led them all away
On to a safer place?
And where it was they found to pray
The ones who fell from grace?

I wonder if they plan to come back
To face what’s left behind?
And why it was that evil pack
Destroyed all it could find?

Writing and sketch done in October and December of 1990

Melinda Lantz-Theissen




 
I BREATHE

We walk and I hear
My spirit again.
You talk and I'm near
To where it begins.
I breathe and you feel
I am more than my skin.
We see and it's real
As it comes from within.

ON AIR

Implications everywhere
Around me on the floor.

Breathe me in 'cause I'm on air
And dripping down your door.

Inspiration melts in me
And blends into my core.

With powers from the blessed be
Bleeding into more.

PALE IN MAY

Winter and lace
So cold yet I sweat
And the days of blood letting
They haunt and regret
Yes, I am pale in May...
What time has washed away.

Summer and wool
So hot, I shiver
And the days of healing
Yet to deliver
When forgetting
What time has washed away

SEPTEMBER TO FEBRUARY

Frail temper sleeveless heart
Last September I fell apart
Scars and stains
thoughtless friends
just remains
of a toxic blend
Hopeful winter
an early spring
over dinner, I learned some things
Giddy for hour’s vivid dreams
finding power And the means.

FAITH LIGHT
Love is the only, the all, the reason we're here.
Hate is a symptom, the actions, the outcome of fear.
Mine is not giving, not having or living, but the spoon.
Blind is the anger, the hater, the one forgetting so soon.
Light comes from within us, to guide us, a force from above.
Faith is our option, assistant, and the drive empowering love.
Ours is not lonely, not shallow nor riddled with doubt.
Together, we would find peace and a purpose, what life is about.
2003

SOMETHING LESS

Later than an Early Bird
Fainter than a whispered word.
Easy as a mastered task
Leaking through a crafted mask.
Brighter in the depths of thought
Lighter than the sinking rock.
Dying like a beating heart
Loving just to fall apart.

2004

I FEEL THE WAY YOU PLAY THE GAME

I feel it coming around my friend
The good times reaching another end
It’s cold heat and snake's skin
Around my heart like infinite sin
Here you are with your love-eating grin
I lose the hope when the games begin
I cannot see it now or then
Forgetting how good it should’ve been

I feel it before I hear the door
Then in  the way you say my name, I can tell you’re back for more
I feel the way you play the game

It’s clear to see who’s keeping score
And who is feeding the flames
The catalyst we can’t ignore
We master placing blame

To the wall down on the floor
Rage is born and eats the pain
Changing who we were before
I feel the way you play the game

It resonates in your vibration
The bubble bursts our loves’ deflation
Mean season time for alienation
Graying my skies of inspiration

Stealing my smile without justification
Bombarding my world with condemnation
Injecting me with a blind frustration
Losing my will
To your game’s creation



© Melinda Marinko
LADY IN WAITING

Lady in waiting
In a cocoon of realization
Across thin ice she’s skating
To reach her destination
What she’ll never know is how deep it goes
And when springtime comes
She turns and runs.

Lady in waiting
On the street corner of faith
Her daydreams creating
Mental toxic waste
What she’ll never know is how deep it goes
And when her bus comes
She turns and runs.

Lady in waiting
At dusk for the sunrise
Always anticipating
Until it arrives
What she’ll never know is how deep it goes
And when the sun comes
She turns and runs.
1989
DON'T MIND THE SOUND

It dawned on me at dawn today...
Here is near to far away.
I thought to find and think I found...
A mounted sign: 'Don't mind the sound'.
Longing for life and long may we live...
All that we gave, and what we all give.
Passed out in back, back in the past...
Up from the start and down to the last
2005

LESSONS
Souls of Simple Lessons
Enveloped in the smoke
Of their burning Delirium;

Confronting a shadow,
Implicating a thought;
Severed by their reasoning...
Then scattered throughout the ashes,
The Cinders of Sanity.
Creativity Illusive… Peace is just a vision.

After the passing, they will return.
The cycle… the steps of wisdom
Our calling young & old.
1994

BEYOND THE EMERALD GLASS

Deep beyond the emerald glass
Lies a thought in which you breathe
Lost inside my twisted hopes
And a face of make believe.

I'm consumed and always knowing
The emptiness is you.
All I have is this desire
While you haven't got a clue.

In the depths of my heart and soul
I've found a place to hide...
Where the silence cannot find me
But the laughter passes by.

How could it be I feel this way?
You hardly know me, true?
I used to be aloof and proud
Alone...
But without you.
1992

A VICE TO TEND

I purchased a feeling,
but now its much too high.
I find I thought of healing,
I think I found the Sky.
Masquerading in my Mirror...

Taught and forgot to know.
I watched while surfing fears,
Smiled yet, hurt too much to grow.
Side stepped.... and off the road
(again) I know -
Whole or not: Its Down to go.

Brought forth the echoes.... Numb toes....
Gray rainbows, no mind and no soul.
I lost my goal.... Paid the tolls....
All it stole... and I are on a roll.
If I don't bend
against this trend, reach an end,
I'll never mend
with a vice to tend.

I must Live Love and Laugh again.
1998


 
ONCE IN A NIGHT TIME

Once in a night time
deep within, we could see
But so many so oblivious
will never know
their fondest dream
their deepest fear
was our invention
Tiny hope – (The mask we pretend we've never seen )
was crafted by only us
in time that no other passes within
but us
Their petty lifetimes and achievements
will be the extent of their capacity
And on and on
We’ll paint their dawn
and take their spawn
and soon be gone

Melinda lantz-theissen Marinko

(Automatic writing/typing on typewriter that had just come out of a dumpster on January 14, 1995)